| to be kicked when you're down, to feel like you've been pushed around... |
[10 Oct 2004|01:02pm] |
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well .. it's been awhile since i've been on lj. none the less, i still have nothing interesting to say..
do you ever feel like breaking down..?
do you ever feel out of place..? like
somehow you just don't belong, and
no one understands you?.. do you
ever wanna run away..? do you lock
yourself in your room, with the radio
on turned up so loud that no one
hears you screaming..?
i'm usually not a fan of simple plan, but this is a song i actually like..
anyway.. erg.. no matter how hard i try to find something, i have nothing to say.
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| wow .. |
[10 Oct 2004|12:54pm] |
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wow. it's been awhile since i've been on here =) yet, i still have absolutely nothing to say. -_-
mike's out at a jets game.. he has nice weather.. damn him >_>
do you ever feel like breaking down..
do you ever feel out of place?
like somehow you just don`t belong,
and no one understands you? do you
ever wanna run away? do you lock
yourself in your room, with the radio
on turned up so loud, that no one
hears you screaming?
don't know why, but i really like this simple plan song. =\
i'm never really a fan of them, but i like this song.
and that's basically all i have to say...
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| happy birthday randy ! |
[21 Sep 2004|04:13pm] |
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yeauuhhh. happy birthday to my dearest old buddy randy, who didn't wait for me at hudson catholic today. -.- which is.. heartbreaking. haha ;]
anyway, so me and jamie went over to hudson catholic anyway, in hopes of seeing randy [shin]. so i called joey and he waited for us like a nice little hudson boy =) and we got on the 80 and we were talking mad loud.. haha. so i guess this lady was gettin aggrivated with out obnoxious selves and was like "you know it's free cone day at Dairy Queen", so being the assholes that we are, me joey and jamie are like OMG let's get one! so we got our free ice cream cones and waited for another bus. got back on the bus, rode passed St.Al's and saw paromita & bong! then joey missed his stop so i had to remind him that the point was to get off the bus next time. so then me and jamie got off on romar and i walked up to winfield. as i was walking through the park to cross over, this spanish kid comes running to me outta nowhere. i was like wtf mate? and he's like "whats your name?" so i just said "pamela..." and so he goes "what school do you go to?" hence the St.Dom's logo on my sweatshirt, i replied "St. Doms.." and hes like "oh cool. can i get your number?" at first i laughed, and he's like "why is it so funny?" so i just told him "no i got a boyfriend, sorry." and he's like "damn. okay" and walks back to his house.. i'm like .. WTF?! loser.. someone's a little desperate i guess. so then i just continued home hoping no other guys would run up to me like he did asking me for my number.. =\
well what a boring entry. i just thought the kid running from his house into the park was kind of funny so i had to mention it. plus, it's one of the most exciting things that's happened to me in awhile. school is pretty boring and i barely have homework, so that's cool =). i also got an A on my english test and an A in chemistry. stupid algebra. got a B. oh well, it's the beginning of the year so i still have time. the last thing i need to fail is algebra, let alone any subject. my spanish teacher expects me to memorize the alphabet for tomorrow.. ha..yeah, riiiight.
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| the "us" broke apart, you & i became nothin |
[18 Sep 2004|02:12pm] |
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llaaa llaaa. i'm really bored. -.-
waiting for james to be done doing .. whatever it is he's doing so we can go meet gabrielle and colleen at the mall.
happy birthday mike♥! =)
so in other news.. yesterday was friday [thank God]. i went to prep to see mike just incase i don't see him today.. which i have a feeling i won't since his family is going to hog him all day -.- but i guess there's always tomorrow. as i was there joey called me. which is so random since i haven't talked to him in weeks. "i'm alone at the bus stop and i wanted someone to talk to .. so i called you" awww. joey still loves me. haha. so yeah that was a 'moment' i must say. got home and sat around all day since my parents refused to drive me to the field. how i hate them -_-
i really don't have anything exciting to say .. something interesting needs to happen =\
natalie's coming today =)
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| wwooww |
[12 Sep 2004|08:28pm] |
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happy one year anniversary - natalie&dave!
make it foreverrr =)
first day of classes tomorrow. i still don't know who's in any of my classes but .. i guess surprises are gonna have to do. tomorrow is also katie's birthday. i would decorate her locker if i knew which one was hers, but i don't so i guess she'll just have to deal with a simple happy birthday hug. life's pretty boring as of now. i have a gay orthodontist appointment tomorrow. i can't wait. -.-
randy had me in tears for about 15 minutes straight. he's too funny for me to handle sometimes. lmao. thanks for those clips =)
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| ooo blue! |
[10 Sep 2004|10:35pm] |
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new colors. baby blue =)
temporary icon though since it sucks -.-
everyone add my buddie randy! he's verry verry cool. ( randy_is_god )
nothing interesting happened today. second day of school. nothing very exciting. Juliet was on the same bus i was this morning =) pretty funny, actually. She goes to snyder so I never see her, none the less she's a senior. This other kid that i know goes to snyder now, too, and constantly follows her around. and just her luck, he got on the bus right after her. i started laughing at her and she told me to shut up. which i guess i woudld've done the same if i had this annoying kid following me around all day, too.
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[08 Sep 2004|11:08pm] |
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school tomorrow. -.-
i'm going to be so sick.
none the less, tired.
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| uhhhhh... |
[06 Sep 2004|02:04am] |
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louis wants me to go to NYC with him to get his tongue pierced in two weeks. `=\
i'm really.. iffy about it.
a. he's 14. if they ask for a parent he's fucked.
b. im scared shitless of needles.
c. he's scared shitless of needles, but wants me to "be there" so he doesn't cry. -_-
d. juliet is getting her tongue done, too.
e. joey is getting his cartilage pierced.
f. louis is gonna be too paranoid to do it
g. im gonna be there for him for nothing. -.-
h. he says "you should too!"
i. never do i want a huge needle putting a hole through my tongue.
j. i dont want to sneak off to nyc. i'd get caught. not only that, but i'd be paranoid and have a horrible conscience for the rest of my life. -_-
i have a feeling he only wants to do this because juliet and joey are also getting piercings. i tried to slightly scare him with the consequences, but he just kind of brushed them off. i guess i shouldn't try to change his mind.. but i don't want him to get an infection or something and then have him regret it and i have to do the "i told you so" dance. -_- somebody tell me about an expierence with a tongue ring.
happy 6 month anniversary, JAYj & RAEann.
happy birthday RON! love you! sorry i didn't make it today. `=[
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[05 Sep 2004|04:41pm] |
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straight up bummin' today. -.-
too lazy to do a god damn thing.
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| awww |
[04 Sep 2004|01:18am] |
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"A beautiful girl can make u dizzy, like you've been drinkin Jack and Cobalt all day, she can make you feel high, for the greatest single commodity known to man, promise, promise of a better day, promise of a greater hope, promise of a new tomorrow, this particular ore can be found in the gate of a beautiful girl, in her smile, and in her soul, and in the way she makes every little rotten thing about life seem like it's gonna be OK......luv ya". awww. well ain't my babe sweet? lol.
anywhoot, today watched two baseball games and played patty cake at least 200 times. -_- oh well.. all in good fun, right? lol. too lazy to go into detail. it was fun. got to see mike since like .. forever. haha gonna see him again tomorrow. woop! `=] well he wants "simpsons jerpordy[sp?]" for his birthday. which was his second choice, me being his first. `;] well i guess i don't have much to say except congrats to the reds and to the rockies on their victories. and jerry, thanks for constantly staring at me? the fuck duudde.. i don't even know you nor do you know me. never spoke before. but you wanted my old basketball number, (3), so you're cool. haha. god this entry is pointless. -_-
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| you wouldn't believe... |
[03 Sep 2004|10:38pm] |
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today fucking SUCKED. there's probably going to be a lot of profanity in this entry. i'm just venting, so you don't have to waste your life reading this.
anyway, thank god i didn't go to the mall today even though i fucking bitched about not going. me and lexx just talked all day since her parents have her on lockdown because they found cigarettes in her bag, which belonged to her sister. but she got blamed anyway. so .. things were going okay.. laughing a lot with lex. then i see brianna's profile saying i "need to get it together" and i'm a "fucking bitch". so you know i just WHYLLED OUT on that bitch. i went fucking CRRAAZZZYY man. i IMed her and she just kept trying to put all this shit on me. but woo i went NUTS. she ran out of shit to say because she knows i'm right. oh well. one big FUCK YOU to you, sweetie. and she says i'm not worth it. yeah bitch please. wasn't for me, your ass wouldn't have gotten ridden around to your every destination. nobody else gives a shit about you either, and now i can see why. because you're a two-faced, backstabbing BITCH. thank god she's out of my life. she won't have many friends in high school. her personality is just plain WHACK.
then i hear about all the shit that went down at the mall. fucking gang problems. damn people take it somewhere else. you almost killed him [literally. killed..]. where does beating the shit out of him get you? NO WHERE. ergh.. stupid A.T. and MON. and jude.. it was your birthday and that's how you wanted to celebrate? ergh..people these days mann.. chelle, thank god you didn't mess up MC today. it just would've been crazy and made matters worse. thanks for staying civilized.
i could go on.. but i'll save us all the trouble and SHUT UP. i don't wanna remember this day.. cause it SUCKED.
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| broken inside |
[01 Sep 2004|03:05am] |
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honestly, there's no reason why my new layout is depressing. it's just from this avril lavigne song i really like. so no, i'm not a depressed child. but i am a pissed off child. no reason to go into detail, but i guess things could be better. but hey, nobody's perfect. and just incase you're wondering.. which you probably aren't, that's Adriana Lima in my icon. just incase anyone is a fan of her, i think she's really pretty! arg, jealousy of the beautiful.
( i couldn't tell you why she felt that way.. she felt it everyday )
ohgoodie! i'm brian!
Which Family Guy character are you?
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| yipppee |
[26 Aug 2004|12:36pm] |
leaving for seaside now.. my uncle is outside waiting.. don't even feel like going. but i guess i need to get away from all this fcuking drama.. *sigh*
love's strange, nothing lasts forever, life's hard, people change.
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| guess it's looking up .. |
[24 Aug 2004|12:59pm] |
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guess things are starting to look up. for one thing, UPS didn't ring the doorbell today. so i guess i won't be telling anyone to "open the fucking door yourself". heh heh..
after all that stupid drama [convo in previous entry], james called! haha. he's back home in jersey city where he belongs. i thought it was cute that he called at midnight. so anywho, i told him about the "drama" of these passed two weeks. i also told him about the brianna conversation. he just laughed, which made me laugh about it, too. we're supposed to chill today since i haven't seen him in awhile, plus the fact i'm leaving for seaside for a few days. he didn't sound too happy about my leaving..hehe. `=] anywhoot, WELCOME BACK JAMES!!!.
gene also had me rolling in laughter. he had a nice little conversation with smarterchild. the AOL robot. it was SO HILARIOUS. but some things in it might offend people, so i'm just gonna keep it to myself. hahaha.
and the savior of all saviors.. louis. we both were extremely bored out of our minds. so we made monday worth waking up for. LOL. i have this elmo away message, and i just kept making it say.. "rude" things about louis, he got a kick out of it and snapped back at him. it was so hilarious, iLOVEyoulouis!
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| mom = lazy fuck |
[23 Aug 2004|12:52pm] |
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so i wake up .. the UPS guy rings the doorbell.. my mom is in her PJs.. i'm in my PJs lookin like a fucking bum. she makes me answer the door and causes this whole scene. so i do it, i come in and throw the stupid thing on the couch. and she says "see did that kill you?" i said "no but would it kill you to have answered the door." and she says "you're in today." ... oohh and that's not all! so then i'm sitting on my computer and she goes "that whole thing wasn't necessary" im like "you making me answer the door wasn't necessary." and she says "keep talking." ... wtf you dumbass you started with me first. if you think i'm just gonna sit around here all day .. well your fucking wrong. it'll just make me more pissed off being in a hell hole with you. well whatever.. i'll just go to the park today. doesn't require any money, and i'll fucking walk if i have to. i guess i'm done ranting for now until she decides some other smartass comment to say..
oh yeah, and one more thing. she says "well it's your uniform" so i say "whatever". and thats when i was told i was in today. and wanna know what the best part is? it's my sister's uniform, not mine. can't wait to see what happens when she realizes that. YOU DUMB FUCK. >.<
edit .. 8:25 pm
oh great. more drama..
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| so sexaayy |
[22 Aug 2004|07:19pm] |
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indeed. my phone is verryy sexy! i got a new face plate for it today. it's pink but like.. clear so you can see the inside. you know what i mean, right? haha. `=]
well anyway.. i had no luck in finding another bathing suit. guess since it's practically september. -.- oh well. i can just get one at seaside. =]
well today went to jersey gardens mall. there was a ridiculous amount of people there, yet i knew not one of them. it's funny.. at newport and hudson mall i know everyone yet at this mall, not a single soul. oh well... what can you do.
i bought a shirt from against all odds. it's pretty nice. it's a white tank top with bugs bunny in the middle. fuck it, take a look for yourselves. hehe
so yeah..that's my shirt. `=D
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| i saw ryan cabrera and YOU didn't! hehe `=] |
[20 Aug 2004|10:45pm] |
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yep, true statement. i saw ryan cabrera at newport mall today. who would've thought he'd come to jersey city? of all places..haha. i watched him perform "on the way down", some song i didn't know the name of, and "true". he's really good live. not fake like most of them. applause for you, cabrera! `=]
so went to the mall with andrew, gene, rocco, and brianna. we watched "without a paddle". it was pretty funny. the funny thing is, gene always says "that's what she said" as a joke, and it happens to be in the movie. we were laughing so hard. gene was laughing hours later at it. anywho, we were making fun of all the people on stage before ryan came on. it was great. andrew caught a shirt they were throwing and dropped it, and some like 10 year old bitch came and snatched it and ran off. little bitch >.< but anywho, saw a lot of people i knew.. i.e, michelle, danielle, katie, jellana, sarah, sam, nikki, keysha, ivanM, miguel, ivanA, francis, brianT, joy, sabrina, christine, lorelie, shaina, rochelle, ron, shaleen, jayj, raeann, zakiyah and i think that's about it. but.. 24 friends to coincidentally run into is a lot to me. haha
today was fun. had a lotta fun with those duuddees. haha i love em to death. they make the days worth living, you know? haha. even better news, mike was online from florida! :cheesy smile: ohyeeauh! so talked to him for a bit but then he had to leave. =[ he's coming home around the 28th. i guess he's leaving florida the 27th and hoping to be back by the 28th-ish. he's gonna visit me while i'm in seaside `;] hehe can't wait. hopefully he'll pick the 30th since that's the big one monthsary. hehe `;) well don't have much more to say..
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| baby it's youuuu |
[17 Aug 2004|11:38pm] |
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eh today was alright i guess. went to country village park at about 4-ish since i couldn't see mike today because my stupid ass mom decided to go out when she knew damn well i wanted to see him today. *sigh* oh well.. what can you do?
so again, hung out with gene, andrew, rocco, kevin, brianna, suzie, and laya. we just hung out and were being..well.. ourselves. more encounters with cops ::eyeroll:: .. LEAVE ME ALLOOONNEE! i don't do anythaanngg! so anywho, had a lot of fun, though. gene told me about what the cops said to him and andrew. haha he's too funny that kidd. andrew was dancing around all day with kevin's headphones, with the occasional outburst of jojo's "get out(leave)". haha gotta love him.
my life's pretty boring.. it's no use writing about funny moments since..well.. you really had to be there for it to be funny. eh, whatever. i guess you could say my mood is always changing. i hate coming home because all the happiness of the day fades away. i like my friends better than my family sometimes, which is pretty mean, but true. i guess it's cause i can never get tired of my friends.. but my family i've known and had to deal with for 14 years. or maybe i'm just trying to find an excuse to my bitch opinion of liking my friends better than my family. o.O
edit 204 AM___ ++// dono why.. but this made me have a special moment. ahaha
gene: u r sooooo fuckin cool
me: i get that a lot ;)
gene: nicely played, playa
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| way too eventful for me |
[16 Aug 2004|12:47am] |
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too much to type..lets just get straight to the facts::
- country village park 4ish with brianna and suzie
- get picked up by andrew and gene. hugs for both<3
- walk to the park, unfortunately meet up with alex, his alchohol, his siblings, his drugs, and his friends.
- unfortunately run into janemarie, veronica, but her cool friend cheleese.
- andrew likes my BAM shirt and tells me i'm the shit. =)
- gene swings people around on his chair.
- cops show up.. almost bust alex.
- tell us all to leave and that we aren't supposed to be at the park as if they own it. FAG POLICE I HATE YOU!! MY HANGOUT AREA AND YOU WRECKED IT! >.<
- get seperated from andrew, gene, and kevin =(
- see mike. =D
- meet up again. andrew throws the cat into the yard twice, we hysterically laugh as everyone else feels bad for it.
- andrew gets gene a new chair since the cops took his.
- go back to the park anyway since we don't give a fuck, joined by rocco and james.
- gene meets pimp cane.
- cheleese's mom is heated as alex rolls by on his bike to tell her her mom's heated.
- we all have fun at the tables at the park.
- andrew insults janemarie the whole day and it makes me happy because shes a slut. =]
- james calls at midnight, tells me how myrtle beach is.
- brianna is mad at me because she's an idiot.
- james calls again. gets ingrossed in my brianna story, agrees with me, i love him. =] haha thankyou for having a brain, hun. `=]
- steve helps me through shit.
say hi to my best friend louis! `=D
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| one, two, three....and CUT |
[14 Aug 2004|12:39am] |
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friends cut. i have a lot of LJ friend to keep up with and most don't comment and i barely comment. so to slim it down, comment to be kept. `=]
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